OSHO : MEDITATION IS A PROCESS OF DEATH, OF NON-BEING, of becoming nothing on your own accord, of disappearing into the whole, into the harmony of the whole. But it is a miracle, the greatest paradoxical experience of life. There is no contradiction in it, but there is a paradox. Seen from the intellectual standpoint, there is a paradox.
You ask: How does it happen that I feel so at home and so lost in this Buddhafield?
That’s how it happens, that’s the way it happens. That’s the way of the ultimate law — ais dhammo sanantano. If you had asked Buddha he would have said: suchness, tathata. This is how the universal law functions: YOU DISAPPEAR AND YOU APPEAR FOR THE FIRST TIME. But you appear in such a new way — not as a person, not as a name, not as a form, not as a separate identity, but just as a total oneness with the whole, in unison with the whole.
That’s what is happening here. Slowly slowly THE ENERGIES OF THE SANNYASINS ARE MELTING AND MERGING AND BECOMING ONE. Thousands of my sannyasins are functioning in a kind of deep orchestra; they are no longer solo players. They have drowned themselves in this Buddhafield. It needs guts, it needs courage, it needs intelligence, it needs awareness to move from the known into the unknown, to go into the uncharted sea.
Deva Kamma, you have left this shore. Your small boat is moving towards the unknown. NEVER LOOK BACK. The old shore will call you back, it will try to seduce you, it will give you many promises. But remember, it has never fulfilled any promise and you have lived on this shore for so long. Don’t forget the misery, the pain, the anguish, the nightmare that it has been for you for years together. Now go on moving. DON’T LOOK BACK, LOOK AHEAD. And always look for the new, the fragile, that which is just arriving on the scene. You will need alertness to recognize it.